About the past..

I am a person who sits quietly and suddenly 'dammit!!' and when somebody ask me what happen, I say 'Huh? Nothing'. It is not because there is something wrong with my brain. It's just happen when I suddenly remember something embarrasing. I am sure you also have gone through that too. Yes, right? Oh, please tell me it's normal.

And the embarrassing thing that I mention earlier is something like this..

Last Christmas, I went to a family gathering. I met this guy, my secondary school crush! He came with my cousin. I knew there are together and I knew that it would be awkward to see him in that situation. Then, I decided to pretend like I do not know him. The last time i talked to him was about 7 years ago and I thought pretending to not knowing him was a good idea. I can say 'Oh, a lot of things happened in 7 years and I'm so sorry I couldn't recall any memory of knowing you'. Well, that was the plan if he suddenly come to me. I thought that we could probably start over again as new found friends. That was the plan. Remember, THAT was the plan. He did come to me and this is what happen.

Him: Hi. Do you remember me?
Angel: Yes.
Him: I knew it! You're Angelina, right? Why did you look at me like you don't know me?
Angel: ...............

..........and I just shot my head with a pistol!! From the beginning until he asked me whether I remember him or not, I looked away when our eyes met. Everything was perfect until I said 'Yes'! I was so embarrassed!

It's not that I don't want to talk to him. We don't have bad history. It's just I wanted to skip the awkward moment. But when I think again, even if I manage to skip that moment that time, eventually, I still have to talk to him. He is going to be a part of the family soon.

The moral of the story is PAST IS PAST. I should have not avoid him. By doing that, I realize that I was actually bringing the past to the present. Another thing I learn is DO NOT RUN AWAY FROM your PROBLEM. You have to face it sooner or later. Why don't get over it quickly and move on? :)

'The past is always with us, waiting to mess with the present' -Gossip Girl-

I think 'what is your past' is not the thing that matter. How you handle it in the present is all that matter. But still, I could not help feeling embarrassed each time I remember that moment. Dammit!! But that's my problem :)

That's all for now, amigos.

Buenos días.